So, I´ve been trying to get a few notes down about my past. But my mind didn´t seem to like that and left me thinking about so many other things instead. Like my past and my future.
For example, will I always be alone? Now I know I´m not alone but that´s how I feel even if I have alot of good friends. But the problem is that I´m always busy and I don´t want to hang out with anyone. I like being alone, but there are so many times where I really want someone to hold me and love me.
now I know this isn't food, butI want to at least start it of with something nice and mild. I'm not entirely sure of why I decided to start with Faded cafe in Stavanger, because the hot chocolate they have isn't all that good...
But they do actually make it out of real chocolate and not some powder they might have ready at other places.
That's one thing I like about them. Not only that but the design of the place is pretty nice! It's very open and it's not too bright, as well as the staff as really nice. Kinda makes you want to help them before you go.
So far today, everything has gone so well. I´m happy I got to talk 5 minutes before lunch, it was really nervwrecking to talk about my situation. I could barely get my words out. I´d written 2 pages about what I was going to say. But what came out of my mouth was everything I´d written, just scrabbled. I was so nervous that I couldn´t follow what I´d written. But all in all it felt so good to get it all out, breaking the ice on this subject.
I don't post things very often, but the reason is because I want to write about new things happening around me, and there's not always anything new. But just last week I found a new place to call home! That's right! I'm moving!
My mind is melting down at the moment.. I made a profile on a meet/dating site called Gaysir.no and now after chatting with this one guy for a day or so, he's asking me out, and it's freaking me out! I'm way too self-conscious about my appearance. He knows I'm a MTF (Male to female) Transgender. But it doesn't help the fact that I'm too self-conscious... He lives up state from me about 5 hours drive or so, I'm guessing. Either way.. What the heck do I do?? >_<''
It's now been over 2 weeks since my sister came to visit me in norway. And we've not really done a lot. That's mostly because I've been lacking in money. But other than that, we've had fun making food and playing games together. It's been awhile since I played games with friends. I know she's my sister, but it's better than having no one to play with... You know what? This is just making me depressed, and I'm not even on estrogen (female hormones) yet. I've posted some pictures of when my sister and went out in the middle of the night.
I've had a great weekend! Friday, I was at a party, where we played a game called Ipuke. It's an app you can download for free on a mobile. The app got us to do A LOT of weird stuff! Like alot! One of the things, one of us had to do, was, to be milked like a cow by another player. That made us all laugh so hard!
It's been 2 weeks since last I posted anything. The reason is mostly because I was lazy. But also because I've been trying to figure out how to finish this little jumpscare game I'm creating. I'll post more of this in the Exclusive blog.
I'm really excited that my sister is coming to stay with me for a month. It's going to be interesting to see how this will go. Seeing as I'll be moving in the middle of the whole thing. I intend to show my sister as much of Stavanger as possible :D
Summer is here! Well here is Stavanger anyway... And when I get home, I'm so getting an ice cream from the freezer >w< Also yesterday gave me a big surprise. I met an old teacher of mine :D I haven't seen him in 2 years, so it was rather refreshing to see him, and that he was doing well. We really didn't get to chat, because he was at my work place and had business to attend to.