So, I´ve been trying to get a few notes down about my past. But my mind didn´t seem to like that and left me thinking about so many other things instead. Like my past and my future.
For example, will I always be alone? Now I know I´m not alone but that´s how I feel even if I have alot of good friends. But the problem is that I´m always busy and I don´t want to hang out with anyone. I like being alone, but there are so many times where I really want someone to hold me and love me.
So far today, everything has gone so well. I´m happy I got to talk 5 minutes before lunch, it was really nervwrecking to talk about my situation. I could barely get my words out. I´d written 2 pages about what I was going to say. But what came out of my mouth was everything I´d written, just scrabbled. I was so nervous that I couldn´t follow what I´d written. But all in all it felt so good to get it all out, breaking the ice on this subject.